The Alchemist.

I know, I'm really sorry for not updating for a very long time. I've been busy/drained with school, and posting something new is merely possible since there's nothing so interesting to post about.

Anyway, to cut the long waiting, here's something I've been looking forward to doing: FAMILY DATE! It's been a while. It had been really hard keeping up with shit from time to time without your parents around, but I'm tryna get used it, since crying wouldn't do any help. I've been crying myself to sleep and I can't sleep properly since they moved away. And I'm looking forward to every weekend they spend here in Manila. 

We watched The Rise of The Planet of the Apes at MOA. (As usual) And the movie was really cool, except that my childhood crush got tasered to death by Caesar, the leader of all the apes and the main character in the movie. James Franco is way beyond HOT, and I must say his acting skills improved. (Well, cause I think he sucked at Spiderman) Any how, here's what I wore:

Derby Hat from MIC

Sheer Top from Thrifted

Denim Cut-offs from Levi's

Bag from Louis Vuitton

Wedges from Parisian

My make-up that day! Haha! My friends asked if I use a ruler when putting on liquid eyeliner. Well, I dont. :)) I just happen to perfect the drill.

Wee! Haha! I bought this one at Zara, fro 480bucks. I just could not, resist!

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▲ISHX

Winds of Change

from time to time

i change my mind

to things wicked and unseen

from things mellow and upbeat

the girl with a crooked smile

seemed withering inside

what the fuck is she going through?

her lover caresses her

she felt mundane

her friends comfort her

she felt a tap on the wrist

what could have been the problem?

what could have made her mad?

is she worth the attention?

is she worth the love?

Lately, I have been making a lot of people doubt my genuinity. Being too one-sided and thinking deeper as usual. I have to be honest to myself. What could have been the problem? Trying to sort it out. Being such a transparent journal all of a sudden. You see, you got some kind of hold on me.

Melo-dramatic

Anti-social

Anti-school

Change in ensemble colors

Sudden changes of the mind

Sudden changes of the mood

Sudden snaps

Darker Eyeshadows

Weight Gain

 I could have made this list a little longer but that would be too transparent. And right now, writing everything down would lessen the weight of dreadfulness. I abhor feeling like an insensitive little prick. Having to deal with your attitude is way more difficult than dealing for weeds. I mean, what more hell does everyday have to put me through? Mom and dad leaving in a week. Brother working graveyard shift. SCH fucking OOL. Thesis. Endless fights with the boyfriend. I mean, don't I deserve a day without keeping up with everyone's shit? Having to be a graduating student in a complicated love life, home of scoldful parents, peer pressures IS ONE HELL OF A WORK. I know shit happens, but never whale shit. I could rant all night, would any of this help? I'm sorry for such self-destruction, I need this. Outlets, recorders, and ears that are willingly lent. All help needed. :/

▲ISHX